“People are just people, they shouldnt make you nervous.” -Regina Spektor
Posted June 26, 2011 at 11:00pm in regina spektor lyrics quote anxiety social anxiety disorder
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It’s an anxiety attack
An anxiety attack
I’ve got a bad case of the horrors
And at night it comes back
‘Cause first I look back at my week
And then I look back at my year
And then I’m terrified to speak
And then I’m paralyzed with fear
And I’m tossing and I’m turning
And I’m going ‘round the bend
And all I see are all my failings
Downward spirals without end
And I see horror in the future
And I see horror in the past
And it’s 4am and 5am, 6am at last
-Jeffrey Lewis
Talent Show
Was a complete disaster. I wasn’t nervous all day until I got up there, then I had a panic attack in front of everyone. I started shaking but I still tried to do my talent. But I messed up the signs which made me more nervous and I just gave up. The whole class was laughing at me. I went to my seat trying to calm down but I couldn’t breathe and I was crying. I was trying to hide my crying so i couldnt get up and leave. Even in the next class I was still crying because I was so humiliated. So I just called my dad and I had to go home early. It was so bad that my dad doesn’t want me to go back to school next week. So that was probably my last day of school.
Rant thing
I feel like throwing up. I should just skip 6th bell tomorrow because I already know what will happen. I’ll procrastinate going up there while everyone else does their awesome talents for the talent show. I’ll say “after this person, I’ll do it” and when the time comes, I’ll chicken out. My heart will start to race and everything will spin. And when she asks if anyone else has a talent to show, I’ll notice how huge my class is and I wont do it. I’ll throw weeks of practicing away because I’m nothing but a coward.
If you want to know me, watch True Life: I Panic
Why am I so nervous about my talent show tomorrow oh god
What if no one is impressed. What if they laugh. What if they say something like “well that was dumb” after I’m done. What if I forget a sign. Jsueofwbsgsurnwpfb.
Kinda freaking out
i got invited to this youth group thing, so if I go I’ll have to talk to people and introduce myself and all that other stuff that makes me nervous. And I’ve only talked to the person who invited me a few times so it’s not like I’ll have my best friend with me or anything. I really want to go but what if everyone thinks I’m a weirdo, or I can’t talk, or I just look like an awkward loser. Oh god I can’t breathe
Omg. I just realized how close the talent show is. I’m freaking out man FREAKING OUT.
Can I just find one friend with an anxiety disorder? It doesn’t even have to be social anxiety, just someone who would understand it. One friend is all I need.
Rant.
My mom is a complete bitch. She doesn’t believe in anxiety and doesn’t think it’s a big deal. I can’t even go to a public school anymore because I have social anxiety disorder. I was telling her how I am invited to a picnic but I don’t want to go because i can’t eat in front of people. And she just rolls her eyes and says it’s not a big deal. Excuse me bitch, but fuck you. I HATE when people treat anxiety like it’s nothing.
